P31 WannaBe Blog
Ok, I haven't had a lot of time to write lately, and I always have thoughts in my head and realizations in my daily life that I know God wants me to share and somehow I have stayed so "busy" that I have ignored one too many!
Most of us know what happens when God continually places something in our hearts that we continue to ignore...and I refuse to go any further ! So, here are some random thoughts from my day today:)
I realized yesterday that since I moved into my new place on the first of this month, I had not received any mail yet. Yesterday was the 13th and even with mail forwarding, I thought that was still odd....I didn't even get any junk mail ! haha...imagine that:)
So I made a trip to my local post office and stood in the long line. After about 15 minutes in the line, it was my turn finally LOL and I explained that I wanted to check on the forwarding status of my mail and new address because I still wasn't receiving any after nearly 2 weeks sent I asked for the address change. Of course, he explained that the forwarding process takes time and all those textbook answers and that there was not any mail on hold for me or any other weird holdup :) I still thought it was strange, but I said okay, I'll give it another week.
Well, guess what? Today in my mailbox I got a note from my mailman that said, please come to the post office, we are holding your mail. It said that the mailbox which is attached at my door just like all of the other mailboxes on houses in most neighborhoods around me, had to be replaced and the new one had to be at the road "so the postal carrier did not have to get out of the vehicle"
As I looked around the neighborhood at all of my neighbors identical mailboxes, I laughed and thought surely it was a mistake. But I really wanted my mail because I've been waiting on my security deposit from my last apartment to be refunded, and other things as well. So, I made the trip back to the post office again....
This time I had a huge pile of mail including 2 boxed packages. You'd think I was a kid at christmas, I get so excited when I get mail! I'm listening to the woman explain why the mail couldn't be delivered to me and all I'm thinking about is who the mail is from, is my refund in it ? and is there a letter from the IRS to explain why my stimulus rebate didn't get deposited on the 9th as their website stated based on my SS ?? !! ... LOL
Now my flesh could have really come through because I had to make a second trip there and because yesterday I was told I had no mail and today I have what looks like 2 weeks worth of mail...normally I would be fighting my own flesh to hold my tongue and not let the other person know how annoyed or inconvenienced I was by someones very obvious error. BUT I was too preoccupied wondering what was in the packages, so I just told her that I understood. She told me that any NEW resident (not home) has to have a street mailbox to replace the one on the house. I questioned to be sure of what she was saying, the townehouse which is the other 1/2 of my building didn't have to have a new one, just me. She said yes. Now if you drove down my street you'd see that that is a little absurd. Because actually, once that happens, the mailman is already walking and will have to get in his vehicle to deliver to the one Roadside mailbox on the street LOL So I said ok.... I'll make sure that the property owner knows they have to put up a new mailbox :)
Hindsight...I am really amazed that I didn't get more aggrivated. My life always seems to consist of lots of little aggrivations like this that I will allow to throw a wrench in my day or mood. Added atop 3 kids and working, it doesn't usually take a lot. So I myself am surprised at me :)
OK.....so let me tell you what was in the BIG BOX ! hehehe
Of course I couldn't wait until I got home...had to open it before I got on the road ! I got so excited when I saw the return address was Joyce Meyer Ministries because I usually get a teaching of the month package, but I remember that I added a little extra which was a sacrifice for me at the time last month and I had my choice between a few of her books this time. I could not remember which one so I opened it In such huge suspense There was the CD of her monthly teaching that I always get and then there It was...The really beautiful, shiny and brand new book..."The Everyday Life Bible" Amplified Version with notes and commentary by Joyce Meyer. Hmmm...OK...so I got a new Bible....
Well, as I drove home, I started thinking about that Bible. I have had the same Bible since April 23, 1995. I know this because the date is inscribed in the front. It's a Life Application Bible, NIV version. It was given to me and my husband on our anniversary that year. It is leatherbound and had our names inscribed on the front. Anyone else would look at this thing and think it has had it ! I never noticed until today. The leather is worn and faded. There are bookmarks galore and page mark stickers I use to put on once I had read a verse or favorite scripture. There are still envelopes and other items from the church my husband and I attended and other churches we visited...all kinds of stuff would fall out if you just hold it open and up ! And believe it or not, I even used nail polish remover and took my husbands name off the front of it last year once we'd been separated 3 years and the divorce was final. So now it says "Wendy blank space where I removed the name Faulkner" LOL Yes, it looks completely worn out.
But guess what? When I thought about putting that Bible up and using this new one, I thought oh no, I can't do that. I have my favorite verses highlighted throughout that entire thing! And then I came to a realization for the first time since I rededicated my life to The Lord. Now I KNOW that I have been given NEW LIFE In Christ and He has Created me a NEW BEING ! This is without a doubt. But I think I had actually lumped my former Christian Life together with this one....and guess what...my walk and my faith now and the annointing that is or is not on my life through God is completely New and Different this time! Why did I never realize this? I've always looked back at my days of being a stay at home mom, homeschooling my children and being active within my church and ministries as if I had reverted back to that...But NOW I realize that God's Plan and Purpose for my life now is different than it was then. And clutching to that Old Bible that represented my former faith and former lifestyle (not adult, my former christian lifestyle when I was married) as if somehow being a Christian and having done all those works at one point in my life made me somewhat more of a Christian now or something? Boy, was I ever so on the verge of really allowing myself to believe this..that by my ink soaked, bookmarked and worn out bible...I was not a "newbie"
Guess what? I am sooooo a newbie and I sooooo want to be !!!! Remember how strong The Holy Spirit filled you with joy and peace and excitement when you first believed...when you were first saved? I am thankful for many lessons I've learned along the way and how they have taught me to apply the scriptures to my life, but I now know that I need to start over again ! That skipping over certain things in my bible because I've read them a hundred times or already taught a Sunday School class on them will not keep His Word alive in my heart because it all means something BRAND NEW again! Although I have been Made New In Christ, just by simply asking to be forgiven from my sins, pouring my heart out to God and choosing to Live for Him, Now I realize that My Faith has also been ReBorn and has a whole new reason and purpose in my daily life today. My testimony for the Awesome Love of God and His Grace and Mercy is different now than it was so many years ago. My Children aren't in the nursery anymore, 2 are teenage and my youngest (8) wasn't even born yet at the point in my life where I was a Christian, before I allowed Satan to pull me away and into the adult industry. My NAME is different now, Legally changed back to my maiden name and everything about my life today is NEW...except that old Bible that I keep clutching onto .....
So , here we go...a final look, tribute and my sentiments to the last reminder of my former self....It's time to retire my 13 year old Bible and take a new and fresh look at The Word of God with my new one !!!
I pray that The Holy Spirit fills me with such a passion and desire to explore His Word as if it were new to me today and every day !
His Humbled Servant,
Wendy
"I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance…" Ephesians 1:18 (NASB)
Hebrews 12:1-2, "…let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us…fixing our eyes on Jesus." (NASB)
James 1:19, "My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry." (NIV)
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